A long-standing source of frustration for me has been my
desire to reach more people with the teachings of the Bible and not being able
to. I have written for decades. Spoken publicly when the opportunities arise both in sermons and studies.
The opportunities to write is always here on the Internet but my organic reach
has always been limited regardless of how I propagate or seed the field of
social media. To complicate this I am in a point in my career where I need to focus on my work often which I realize is also a huge piece of my ministry.
At times I feel like Adoniram Judson who was a missionary
from Burma/Myanmar. In his 40 years there preaching the Gospel and teaching
Scripture he saw virtually no converts in his lifetime. In some respects, he went
to his grave believing he was a failure. It wasn’t until missionaries returned
after his death that they found that that many in the Buddhist country had
converted to Christianity.
God gave me Kingdom aspirations … big thoughts. I want to
reach more people. In light of Charlie’s death and watching people like Wes
Huff reach millions with the Gospel this shortcoming feels more amplified and
the desire to make a difference for Christ’s kingdom has become more intense.
As I age the importance of it seems even more urgent. I am 57 this year and I won’t
be on this earth forever.
I’ve been forced to sit and watch as the world inverts and
divides (not by my own choice most time). It’s like I’m sitting in the back of a
theater and there’s chaos on the screen and there is chaos in the audience too.
I watch it all unfold as an observer. I cannot effect a change to the things on
the screen as they are at too high a level and disconnected like the problems
in our government, in our nation and in the world. I try to intervene with the
people in the audience watching the violence on the screen and they reject me
and what I am saying also. Yet…I can show biblical instances of nearly
everything we’re seen unfold in this nation in the last 40 years. I can also show
the solutions and resolutions for many of these problems from the Bible also.
Yet, my invisibility to the ones on the screen is complete. They don’t even
know I exist. The rejection from those in the audience directly in front me
that I try to help steer out of confusion, chaos and in the downward spiral is utter
and absolute. The world is unmovable in its
corruption. I am making virtually no difference.
Have I affected people. I think so. Those who love and care about me tell me I’m making more of a dent than I think I am. Being the flawed human worldly person I am through I see mostly the shortcoming. A failure to do as I was told to do. I need to do more and honestly don’t know how as this seems to be in God’s timing…and I am not a patient man.
From everyone who has been given much, much will be
demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be
asked. Luke 12:48

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